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Another new week

Published March 27, 2012 by The Inane and insane Ramblings of Rose

Okay so last week didn’t go as I planned. I weighed in yesterday and only lost a pound so I am down to 283.8which is okay. A loss is still a loss. I did decide that moving forward on the DVD’s wasn’t goign to work. My fitness level just is not high enough yet despite the amount of weight loss i have had. But there is no shame in doing what I have to do to get healthy so I am moving back to discs one and two one Jillian Michaels. Discs 3 and 4 were just way too high impact and I was not able to do them correctly without hurtign myself or havign soem chect paina nd I didn’t want that whole cannoli to start again. So I am going back to the first two discs plus the cardio, and adding some yoga, my exercise bike, and going back to swimming. I am also going to be doing more outdoor activities with Liam such as hiking. I did manage to do everything on my to do list for last week so that’s a big plus. Every step forward is a good step. Everything I do is an “I can” versus and “I tried” which is why it is so important to set attainable goals. even though I couldn’t do the second discs the entire week, I swithced back to the first discs and still got in six days of exercise so that’sa big thing. ic ompleted my vision board. i paid my bills. I ate healthy. I drank plenty of water. I went shopping for groceries. i completed the swaps that i was signed up for. I ordered what I needed to for my other swaps. I even started some new supplements. Just to give me a little push. So these are all good thigns and all good steps towards acheiving my goals. Hopefully this week will bring even better things.


A new week

Published March 20, 2012 by The Inane and insane Ramblings of Rose

Well today was a mixed bag. I started off with a new Jillian Michaels DVD disc 3 and it was very discouraging. The impact between last weeks workouts and this weeks is so hugely different that I just dont have the strength to complete half the moves in proper form. Still I gave it my best shot and stuck with it through the entire half an hour. I’m not sure how and I know I’ll be in pain tommorow but at least I tired. And I will keep trying until I get it right. I also did 45 minuts of Yoga for beginers on DVD and that was fantastic. Challenging but fantastic. It made me feel much better. So it was an okay day overall. I also started on my vision board. i have alot more to go and to add to it but I got a good part of it done. And am feeling good about the results. I even devised a rewards system for my weight loss efforts which will give me more incentive and gives me tangible milestones to work for. So that’s it for today. Let’s see what tommorow brings.


Catch up on the last 13 days

Published March 18, 2012 by The Inane and insane Ramblings of Rose

Well boys and girls, the last 10 days I have been fighting; fighting a new bout of Major depression, fighting to play catch up for neglecting my body, fighting agoraphobia, fighting to catch up with my friends, fighting some days just to get out of bed. I think I am finally starting to see some progress. This journal entry will be long because it will be an update of the last 10 days.

Day 1 Monday 3/5/2012

I hopped on the scale this morning and realised just how bad my diet had become and how it has been effecting my body. I have gained 8 pounds in one week. Last week I just decided not to care anymore and gave up my diet, my exercise, and even pretty much getting out of bed. But today is a brand new day and a brand new start and I am determined to feel better and to fight back and get better. My first start is my body as well as my mind. I am going to start Jillian Michaels Body Revolution from the begining both the diet and exercise program. I am going to see my psychiatirst on wednesday to get some help with this crushing depression and I am going to go to therapy on thursday and commit to going. So to start the following are my mesaurements for the beginning of the program:

  • Weight: 294 lbs
  • Uper Chest 50 inches
  • Bust 55.5 inches
  • Midriff 50.5 inches
  • Upper arm  18.25 inches
  • Waist 52 inches
  • Upper hip 57 inches
  • Lower hip 57 inches
  • Upper thigh 33 inches
  • Mid thigh 30 inches
  • Calf 20 inches
  • Dress size 28

Yes my thigh circumference is bigger than most people’s waists, I  get that. That’s why I am trying to change it. So today I got up and started after weighing and measuring myself with Jillian Michael’s excercise disc 1 which focuses on triceps, back, chest, abs, and quads. I drank 3 33oz bottles of water during the day. For breakfast I had fat free greek yogurt with three pecans and cinnamon. For lunch I had a small portion of salmon with a small salad. After lunch I did Jillian Michaels Cardio disc 1.  Then for dinner I had a small steak and a spinach, tmoato, and olive salad. I am exhausted from all the excercise but feel it is a productive first day, despite the mood swings and fatigue.

Day 2 Tuesday 3/6/12

this morning I felt like I needed to get the exercise out of the way or I wouldn’t get it done. yes it was one of those ays. So I did Jillian Michael’s disc 2. This disc focuses on biceps, abs, glutes, and thighs. I manged to make it through that and had breakfast with my husband of pached eggs, 2 slices turkey bacon, 1 tomato, and 2 tbs guacomole. During the day I had 5 33oz bottles of water, a snack of yogurt, vanilla, and pecans, a lunch of salad with tuna and boiled eggs, and a dinner of tilapia and salad. I am too tired. to exercise for a second time but that’s a good start for day two. I also started on penpal letters. I have about 30 to catch up on.

Day 3 Wednesday 3/7/12

Today has been a tough day. i started out with breakfast of eggs, salmon, ionion, and spinach and a 33oz bottle of water. I was feeling so rough around the edges that I had my husband drive me to see the psychiatrist. D. Levinson spent 15 minutes with me and agreed that I was having an onset of Major Depression and added a second antidepressant, Welbutrin 150 Mg, to my already expansive medication regime. I headed to the pharmacy and then headed home. We later went as a family to the mall to see Liam sing with the ensemble. It was tough going to get there and I felt extremely anxious but I made it through. Got home and had a lunch of chicken breast and vegetable soup and a bottle of water. And then I did Jillian Michaels Cardio Disc 1. This disc kicked my ass. I couldn’t do several of the exercises and had to improvise but I did it all the way through at any rate. For dinner, I had a turkey burger, tomato, guacamole, roasted brussel sprouts and carrots. For a bedtime snack I had a 1/4 cup of hummus with baby carrots and bell pepper. There are virtually no carbs in the first 7 days of thius diet I’ve noticed. That’s probably why it works so well. Already I’ve noticed a difference in my body.

Day 4 Thursday 3/8/12

today my depression was really tough. I managed to make it to therapy and cried through the whole thing. But it was good to get out the frustration. I had three healthy protien rich meals and 3 bottles of water. I couldn’t bring myself to exercise.

Day 5 Friday 3/9/12
Today was alittle better. I started my day off with Jillian Michaels exercise disc one then had a healthy breakfast of eggs, turkey bacon, tomato, and gaucomole. I drank 2 bottles of water. My husband came home after work and I decided I needed a treat and made an unhealthy physically but satisfying emotionally choice of going out to dinner to the chinese buffet. Believe it or not, after all the carbs, I felt 100% better. It may have all just been in my mind though.

Day 6 Saturday 3/10/12

Today I was feeling crummy again so I skipped out on the excercise but ate three healthy high protein meals and a snack and had three bottles of water. I also started writing a few penpal letters which was good progress.

Day 7 Sunday 3/11/12

I started my day off right with Jillian Michaels disc 2 and followed it with a healthy breakfast. Aftr breakfast I made healthy choclate chip oatmeal muffins with Liam from JM’s cookbook. It was nice to do something together. I even had a muffin for lunch. For dinner I had chicken and homemade veggies soup. It was really good. I drank my quota of three bottles of water.

Day 8 Monday 3/12/12

Today my wieght was 284.8. A huge improvement from the begining of the week I am starting to feel better. I am writing more penpal letters, I had three healthy mals today and 5 bottles of water. I finished off the begining of week 2 with exercise, Jm’s Disc 1.

Day 9 Tuesday 3/13/12

Today was a good day. I had three healthy meals, a snack, 4 bottles of water, and worked my way through JM disc 2. The exercise is getting a little easier every day.

Day 10 Wednesday 3/14/12

Okay so I lied about the exercise getting easier. I did Jm’s Cardio Disc 1 and it took my breath away. Yikes! But I did it. So that’s a good thing. I treated myself to a bottle of Diet pepsi today. yes I know soda is bad for me but it tasted so damned good. Because of the soda, I also cut back on my water, but did have two healthy meals.

Day11 Thursday 3/15/12

Today I went out to lunch with old mike and it dredged up alot of emotional crap. It was a very hard day from there. I did manage to get my exercise in but it was a tough day.

Day 12 Friday 3/16/12

Today was therapy day. Talk about tough. But Dr. Kuna says I am making huge progress and learning alot about myself.   It’s just really tough. But I got through it and came home to exercise. It was a bad food day for me. I had pasta sald for lunch while I was out and had corned beef sandwiches for dinner. And ice cream for dessert. I don’t anticipate weight loss this week. I did at least finish the day with JM Disc 2.

Day 13 Saturday 3/17/12

Today Liam and I hiked Bushkill falls the yellow trail as per his request. I would have liked to do the red trail but the yellow is a start. It was beautiful. It really strecthed my body to the limit though with all of the steps. On the way home Liam was hungry and there isn’t much between bushkill and home so we stopped for a burger and fries. Later thatnight I has a plain steak. I did drinks oem water but not much else for the day. But at least it was a lovely day. I also finally got to the bottome of my penpal pile and am officially all caught up. Yay!!


Cardio and Finnigan begin again

Published February 24, 2012 by The Inane and insane Ramblings of Rose

Well I survived the cardio portion of Jillian Michaels just barely. And I mean barely. I made it through the next two workouts a little easier but not by much. But I am actually gaining a little bit of weight. i don’t think i am watching my diet enough. And I think I may need to add swimming or some sort of other exercise with the program to make it work better for me. When I come back from virginia the end of next week I am going to follow the diet plan I think and see what happens. It will probably help. It is high protien low cal ketogenic. In fact for the first week there are pretty much no grains at all allowed. Then some whole grains. I’m not sure fruit is allowed the first week either. Until then I am just going to keep on trucking. I will do the best I can. My trip will kind of put my exercise on the back burner a little bit but I need a bit of a getaway and it will be good to see my friends again after so long. And I can still follow a healthy diet. Tommorow I am back into cardio mode and it will probably hurt like the dickens again but I know I can do it. i really need to get a sports bra though as there is a lot of jumping around and someone is going to get hurt lolol. These puppies have a mind of their own! Lol. Anyway, Ciao!


A lovely swim today

Published February 14, 2012 by The Inane and insane Ramblings of Rose

Today my exercise goal was filled by a 45 minute swim. It was fantstic. It tired me out though. I am used to having a lot more energy and this recent illness has set me back some. I wanted to throw in the towel at 30 minutes but kept going that extra 15 and made it for the full 45 minutes so I was really proud of myself. Perservering is important to me and meeting my goals, no matter how small are important to me too. So I did it and deserve a pat on the back!!!!!


The weigh in and Purple Hair

Published February 12, 2012 by The Inane and insane Ramblings of Rose

Well I weighed myself this morning and I am back down below 290 to 289.8 so that is a good thing. It’s not perfect but means I am gaining ground again. So I am happy with that result. That does not mean that the peanut butter cups in my bedroom drawer are not calling my name lololol. But they are for days when I really deserve a treat.  I already had my treat for today… Purple Hair!!! Yesterday I bleached my hair and today I dyed it permanent violet. It looks awesome I will take a pic later at some point and post it. I love my purple and I think I did a bang up job.  It’s totally cool. Now I just need a trim and I am set!    Meanwhile this morning I made a bang up smoothie with spinach, cucumber, celery, yellow bell pepper, watermelon, and cantelope. It was good. I have no idea what I’m having for dinner tonight but it has to be something really healthy as we ate out last night. I mean it was fairly healthy last night, mostly sushi but even so. Tonight will most likely be fish, whole grain mix, and veggies of some sort. Well that’s about it! My goals for this week are to go to the gym three times, lose one pound, ride the eexercise bike for 15 minutes a day on my off days, get my echocardiogram done on wednesday, therapy on friday, get my truck fixed tommorow, drink lots of water, be more predictable with my sparkpeople account, write more in my journal, catch up on my swaps and penpals, and maybe do something fun. So that’s it for me. See you next time!